shopping

someday soon i hope to be able to go into a store maybe it will be a local business not a chain store, that would be nice, anyway the local businesses don't normally treat people the same as the big chains but i digress. i won't name names but since it is the holiday season i have been in some stores and i am tired of being treated like a potential criminal. in one store i went to purchase a camera since the two we own the older one being maybe four years and the newer one being no more than one point five years but both broken, the older already having been repaired once. you know what the fuck they don't make anything worth a damn anymore why even bother to buy something expensive? i spend a hundred dollars on a camera today because i want to take some pictures of my family you know? my other cameras are broken and obsolete. so i'm not buying anything but the hundred dollar model because i know that in about one year the damn thing will be either obsolete or broken or both. so it's not like a big decision anymore even though by all rights you should be able to purchase a product like a camera and expect to own it and use it without incident for five or ten years or am i just old fashioned? i guess so well whatever i remember when...

so i go to the store i have purchased other things there before like laptops and ipods so i'm what you might call a customer but i am treated like everyone else -- a likely suspect for shoplifting. yes the store is jam packed with displays of videos and music and electronics products many tens of thousands of dollars of merchandise all set up on the displays so tightly organized and crammed into the damn store that the many employees and customers have to walk single file excuse me pardon me bump excuse me wait wait bump shift step aside wait for help. oh hi i would like one of these cameras. ok sure i have the key the cameras are locked in a cabinet because they must get stolen yes i see but *i* am not about to steal the god damn fucking camera i would just like to purchase the piece of shit so i can take pictures for a year until i have to buy another piece of shit camera to replace it ok? well fine so she gets the supposedly valuable piece of shit camera out of the locked cabinet but she can't put it in my little shopping basket because i might *still* steal it you see so now i have to tell her if i'm done shopping. um YES. i'm done i can't wait to get out of this fucking hell hole store please ring me up. she rings me up and i put my new junk camera in the disposable plastic bag over my hand and head for the exit bumping and excusing my way single file past the copious display of merchandise so much merchandise that you need a damn bread crumb trail to find your way to the door with the theft-protection detector sensor thingamabob gauntlet devices at the exit. and yet there's still an employee there oh hi thanks for shopping here could i please just check your receipt?

are you people fucking kidding me????? i have already been treated like a criminal twice in ten minutes -- once by having to ask for help to get the camera out of the locked cabinet and a second time by not being trusted to shop with the thing in my basket and yet that is not enough. i must be subjected to yet a third humiliating personal security check to make sure the thing in my plastic bag matches the receipt before i walk through the securitized gates -- the fourth check.

oh i'm sure the management does this to keep costs down mm hmm so they can pass it on to you and me. yes that explains how i can go in there with my such-a-good-customer coupons which looked so promising when i printed them off although there did seem to be a lot of fine print but i went shopping to drop a couple of hundred dollars on electronic crap that will break in a matter of months. but my coupons gave me ten percent off the lousy accessory so that i saved a whole three dollars. goodness gracious thank you so much that will pay for a school lunch. i guess i will not make a turkey sandwich for one of my children one of these days and i'll be sure to snap a picture of my child with my new hunk o'crap camera on the morning that he or she leaves for school to buy school lunch with the three dollars i saved from shopping at the store with such diligent anti-shrinkage/customer humiliation policies that they could afford to pass on a three dollar savings to me, a good customer.

so i just looked at the guy with this look i don't know what it was but it felt like if there was a thought bubble visible over my head it would say something rude or at least contain a WTF. but since it would be rude to say what i'm sure i was thinking at that moment and i really to try not to be rude to people because i understand they just find it so random seeing as this type of behavior -- meaning treating customers like potential criminals -- must be the height of good management best practice kind of stuff, so i just looked at him a little fiercely and left. and i'm sure he was thinking 'what a bitch' as i walked to my car. ha.

bitchslapped

image from: http://blog.makezine.com/archive/2008/12/electrojunk_sculpture_for.html


so, yeah, i can't post at my news blog because somebunny flagged me as spam bo hoo hoo and now the google people will take their sweet time to fix it i'm sure. must have got too close to something i'm guessing in the philippines so they put the oven mitt over my head. hey whatever there's nothing i can do about it but wait it out and catch up on my reading.

anyway you know i call that blog the good guys will win ha for a reason. the greatest accomplishment a person can have today is to speak the truth. and the more people get sucked into the power establishment the less able they become to speak the truth and in many cases even to discern it. but the truth has a way of coming out just ask tiger woods. so they play a losing game of kick the can and they keep kicking the can down the road but they don't know who lives down the road.

if there's one thing i believe it's that we cannot predict how things will work out they just don't work out how you ever expect and that's something i've learned over and over again. the true God of goodness and truth and creativity can take everything we throw at him with our free will abuses and make a work of art out of it and it might look like one of those junkyard sculptures but it's gonna be good and you will laugh because it will be sort of recognizable and silly with googly eyes and springs and funny proportions like the most talented caricaturist bobble-headed doll rendition of something you've ever seen. and then after everyone has a good laugh except the people whose precious metal junk just got sculpted by the master, he'll take that metal creation and melt it down in the crucible and burn off all the impurities and then we'll see who has been bitchslapped worse and who is made of gold and who is made of tungsten and who is a carbon based human being and who is a piece of dirt.

happy thanksgiving

oh hi happy thanksgiving. taking a little break from cooking for my family and hey i just have to say it's good to be a conspiracy theorist right about now. i mean between the leaked memos about global warming and bin laden aka cia asset tim osman reportedly dead since december 2001, now hitting the "mainstream" media eight years later, hey good times. what's next? the american government is run by jews? say it isn't so. i hear they control the media too. *and* hollywood. jeebus crow. things will really start to get good when we see famous powerful people in handcuffs on the teevee. i for one am ready. bring it.

critics

so yesterday a brilliant blogger friend of mine who busts his ass trying to help people understand how they're being manipulated got an email critique which basically told him to calm down sheesh you sound all preachy hey maybe if you really want to be helpful you should think of all the white christians who might read this and try to connect with them and don't be putting pictures of dead children in your articles it's very upsetting you know. well naturally the critic phrased it all somewhat less pointedly, not much, but you know i'm all about reading the actual message no matter how it's couched and that was the message of this critic, all smugly self-assured that it can't possibly be as bad as some of us claim so therefore we oughta tone it down or risk being marginalized. and i have been personally accused of going too far and upsetting people in their bubbles with my sharp pointy pointedness. which is true. i absolutely have done that many times so many times and i am consequently marginalized and that's fine with me.

so my friend felt badly here he has put so much thought and time into his work, uncompensed of course, and he asked me what i thought. and i told him that blogger is free and if this critic really wants to be "helpful" this critic should start a blog and make it just as dumb as the critic finds appropriate for his or her dumb thumb-sucking audience. ok i didn't put it quite that way but that was the message. i mean why should anyone dumb anything down at this point do we not have enough dumbed down information in the world? must we forever protect people's feelings from the sharp edges of the truth? fuck that shit. as i said in my own defense when it happened to me, yeah i know so and so is upset but it's TRUE. what am i supposed to lie to make people feel better? i don't think so. go get your fucking blankey and curl up on the couch if it upsets you. read a magazine or watch teevee god knows you won't be assaulted by the truth doing that.

there's some progression people go through. those who started with 9/11 of course have been at it for a long time, the ones who started earlier should be revered as the real prophets of our age but let's leave them aside for now. let's say sometime after 9/11 a person began to have some nagging doubts and started looking into things. one thing leads to another it's all connected, that is both the horror and the beauty of starting to look into things independently, you soon learn that everything you ever knew is total bullshit. and i do mean everything -- politics religion finance culture media history science medicine education foreign policy think tanks charities -- the whole thing has been tainted with a shade of evil twisted sometimes subtly sometimes not but in every field of endeavor you will find lies important lies strategic lies that mean the difference between life and death for somebody somewhere. and you start to realize how many somebodies have died as a result of these lies and you see so many others queued up for misery and death all chipper and willing and obviously mind-controlled but having NO IDEA and you say to yourself wtf? this is absolutely diabolical. so after you recover your balance you're now standing right-side up in an upside-down world, realizing that *everything* is fucked up but now you are properly oriented and sufficiently recovered from the shock so you can move around freely again without bumping into things.

however what seems to happen is that some people can see you moving around freely but they just can't accept that *everything* is fucked up that just can't be possible so they must keep a few sacred pillars in place to orient themselves in the fucked-up world. but they still want to move about freely. except they refuse to do the polar magnetic reverse mind-fuck manuever which one has to do in order to drink the free-thinking juice from the free-thought-straw. so the resulting confusion and frustration which results from their denial that they have to go "all the way" like some free-thinking whore, that frustration of being neither here nor there must go somewhere and that's what people like me are for -- to be "fucked up" so you don't have to be. so sayeth the critics.

of kings

that princess diana she was something wasn't she? i'm not so much for paying attention to the royals and all that kind of stuff but have been paying more attention lately, not necessarily to the british ones but to royalty in general. for as i'm realizing that one of the great mindfucks we've all been treated to is this idea that the royal families are somehow superfluous because they have no political power. therefore don't waste your time watching them. tremendous mind-staggering wealth aside...they have no "political" power wink wink wink.

course not. they don't need any. politics would be for the entertainment and distraction of the common folks and meanwhile the royal families live pleasant and relaxing lives enjoying privacy and wealth and privilege, and by the way they absolutely take all the bloodline business dead serious and that's why they don't go around marrying commoners, it means renouncing rights to thrones and things like that. so it happens but probably not a decision to take lightly.

so while we're all paying attention to the nimrods playing politics all these royal cousins are doing what exactly? well who knows. they enjoy privacy but something lately tells me there's a fight or something on amongst them and given their prodigious wealth sloshing around in the system we feel some effects of this but it's damn hard to tell what's going on. but like the princess and the pea my delicate senses tell me that a disturbance lurks deep beneath many mattresses and i advise you all to look in those directions wherever the princes and kings and queens move about with their ribbons and tassels and jewels and symbols, look there for the clues for they harbor ancient grievances and claims which they nurse with unreasonable passions.

it would be nice to have a king to rule over the world with justice and benevolence. i have longed for such a thing many times but human beings fail at the task. there's only one king who ever walked this earth who was then and remains today worthy to serve and that is Jesus the Son of God. allegiance to any other will end in disaster.

the power of witness

let's say something happens to you, something strange. let's say you saw a ufo or something, no that never happened to me i'm just giving you a good example. would anyone believe you? ok a few people would but you probably wouldn't know them you'd have to go hunt them down on the intertubes, find your peeps and join a yahoo group or something. most likely the people you live with and work with would think you a little daft because they've never seen a ufo it's rare laduh.

unless of course one of them was with you. then you would have a witness. and if you and the witness both agreed that yes indeed the aliens landed in the back yard and their spaceship smelled like salami and they wore shiny purple suits and spoke with french accents like jacques pepin or something, well as long as you had a witness there would be one person on earth who wouldn't think you totally crazy. and that would mean a lot to you having seen what you saw. because when it's over nobody will believe you and don't you know it, and you might start to question your own sanity after a while and wonder if you dreamt the whole thing or the nsa is fucking with you or something.

so i was thinking about all the crazy stuff i see in my internet travels, a lot of it i blog about i sure do spend a lot of time blogging and occasionally i wonder why do i do this does anyone care, and i realized that i am simply being a witness. and you know what? that counts. that is a valuable service to provide to people who are being hurt. even if you can't necessarily do anything else you can say yes, i saw that. i saw what they did. you are not crazy. i saw the murder the corruption the coverup the stealing the symbolism the rape the abuse the lying. i saw it too it really happened and i promise you i won't forget. and if they ever ask me i will say yes, i saw it with my own eyes i saw what you did. and if you want to kill me erase me imprison me stop me you can try, but there are other witnesses to whatever you do. we will witness for each other until so many eyes stare at you that you can't hide anymore.

and it's so easy. all you have to do is look, and watch, and believe your own eyes comprehend what you see before you. shut out the sound if you need to just read in silence read the words let them register go back over them until you see what they say. slow down and understand. witness for your fellow human beings believe their tales of woe at the hands of the powerful and they will witness for you. especially believe the children who are precious and who have no reason to lie about powerful people hurting them. they have no reason to lie only the powerful have such motivations. and in this way we shall deliver each other from evil.

it's a mistake to hunt human beings

A young girl and her dog looks out from a vehicle as she and her family wait for security clearance at a checkpoint on the outskirt of Bannu, a town on edge of the Pakistani tribal region of Waziristan, Thursday, Oct. 22, 2009 as they flee a military offensive in South Waziristan. Pakistani troops and the Taliban fought fierce battles in Waziristan, a militant sanctuary near the Afghan border in an operation that started on Saturday, with both sides claiming early victories in an army campaign that could shape the future of the country's battle against extremism. (AP Photo/Ijaz Muhammad)


she can see right through you, and so can her dog. you'll never get away. there's no place far enough to run to. people like this will haunt you until your dying day because they've seen things and they know things, secret things, and they know about good and evil. and their eyes stare with that dead level gaze and bore laser beams right through you God help you if you're hiding something evil you've done because you can't hide it from eyes like these.


peekaboo.

i am wearing my toga and i like it that way

seriously i don't think people even know what dignity is anymore, what it looks like, what it means. i myself had mine own stolen a long time ago and recovered it with help, but now that i have it back i can see that just an awful lot of people have lost theirs. and they don't even know it, that's the trouble. a lot of people walk around without their dignity on and therefore it seems almost normal to be debased and debauched, to accept lies and abuse and crap for news and entertainment that you will now make life or death decisions with. to have people running your life as if you're an invalid who can only make a pathetic wavy X on the signature line.

dignity and privacy go together. most people have no privacy our privacy has been invaded by a paranoid government. but even we have it better than the so-called celebrities who have had their dignity stripped, literally stripped so that they can't do a single thing without having photographers at hand and magazine publishers ready to rip them apart for making a mistake for wearing the wrong sandals. but you see they get something in exchange for giving up their dignity, they get money. the system has been designed to reward certain people very very handsomely for surrendering their dignity. they get lots of money and fame and attention, the attention of their adoring fans poring over their every single move and offering to marry them please please please, and so it doesn't seem so bad to the many people to aspire to give up their dignity hey at least you might be rich and famous and have your choice of whack-job spouses.

but who gets to have their dignity *and* their money? oh you are not allowed to know that pfft. hell even the president of the usa has no privacy or dignity. you know he's just a piker and a tool and the people who guard their dignity with ferocious jealousy don't want you to even know they exist. no no. you are to satisfy yourself with a life striving to be like some rich famous miserable person lindsay lohan or brittany spears or the dead ones like heath ledger, with no dignity but at least money or fame along with crying screaming adoring hating mourning fucking crazy lost fans, and failing that -- which let's face it most people will fail to reach that level of rich and famous misery -- well you have at least given up your dignity pursuing that nightmare dream for nothing. hey great deal huh? what do you think all these reality teevee shows are about anyway? it's to encourage more and more people to sacrifice their human dignity for nothing but money, which they mistakenly believe will make them happy.

and then these very same people turn around and treat everyone else like they have no dignity either, seeing as they don't know any better. and you know when you have your dignity on and someone tries to rip it off your body, hey i'm sorry but that pisses a person right off. have a fucking clue.

i keep talking about dignity because i keep learning about dignity. God created us in his image therefore we have dignity, we can learn we can act we can create we can grow. but at this point many of us have been reduced and cut off from our innate abilities to learn to act to create to grow so that one might fairly say some animals have more dignity than human beings. and that my friends constitutes a tragedy because we were made with everything animals have but we got something extra, and that extra thing is dignity. God gave it to us for a reason. why do we let people steal it from our children why do we take it from them ourselves why do we let people trick us to hand it over as adults? why, not to sound like nancy kerrigan but WHY? some tonya harding nutbag flunky has whacked us over the kneecap with the crowbar and we need to wrap an ace bandage and get a bag of ice and go get that fucker, limping or not. seriously people come on already.

sea monsters

Jesus God i don't mean to swear like this but you know i've been reading news a long time and it is becoming nearly impossible to figure out what's going on lately. they have got some serious misinformation and discrediting psyops going on now, it must be close to something happening. for instance you read that ahmadinejad is a crypto jew and it starts making sense in a new way and the next thing you know the information pops right out of conspiracy corner and shows up in the guardian or something like OMG people ahmadinejad is a crypto jew. wow that was fast i mean since when does stuff like that just show up in the corporate media a few days later? and a few days after *that* it gets debunked. oh nevermind that is not true heh heh heh just a false flag false alarm. oh REAlly? limited hangout or what?

you know when you think you have a fish nibbling on the line and you want it to bite on but then it does catch on and it catches on so good and starts taking line that you start thinking hold on a second is this a fish or a giant octopus what the hell is on the line? somebody hand me a gaffe. too much mind fucking. everything they do is designed to put the dirt on them onto somebody else and discredit people who try to point out that they're up to no good.

it kind of makes me want to sit back and say all right you fuckers we're not fishing right now ok? oh by the way rot in hell for eternity where you belong with that satanic creature you worship, why don't you leave this nice planet here to people who can get along with each other and share we could have a nice world if it weren't for *you* nasty defective pathetic excuses for human beings. you're just jealous you're not human we all who pay attention know that's what's really going on you aren't human and you have no future except misery so you have to keep screwing people and amassing money and power because once you die it's curtains for you. but hey that's not our problem and you didn't make anything you just steal and destroy and that is an inherently unsustainable business model especially if you're stupidly intent on killing off millions or billions of people that you feed on you idiots but don't listen to me you can't hear me anyway i don't speak your language i am A HUMAN BEING not a monster like you. we're not chumming or fishing if you want to know what we think you can swim up to the boat from your fucking marianas trench from hell and try to scare us that way and we know you'll get the decompression sickness on the way because you're in such a hurry to execute your evil plans and you'll be some dead disgusting mass of gelatinous swollen exploded putrid flesh floating on the waves and we won't be afraid we'll just hold our noses start the engines and sail on over to paradise island while the seagulls and terns and minnows eat your remains. losers. pfft.

hold the phone

on one level we can talk about iran and what iran is doing and the IAEA and so forth, and we can look at the big kerfuffle over the 'secret' facility that isn't a secret because for one thing the spooks know everything before it happens anyway do they not? they're always bragging about that shit and trying to make us paranoid with how good they are so fuck them you can't have your cake and eat it too either you know all this shit or you don't, make up your mind already, and anyway for another thing iran volunteered the information, so the whole scene is a big cock up OK? everybody calm down for pete's sake.

on another level we know about the so-called clash of civilizations and the desire of a tiny group of people who want to rule the world to set christians and muslims against each other let them kill each other off in a big bloody war. now of course it would be most convenient for that to take place someplace away from the so-called holy land so that we don't have any unnecessary pollution wrecking things for the chosen people as they establish erezt israel on land currently inhabited by various arab people. that might be one reason why iran seems to be such a juicy target. you know the rule of real estate location location location. after all iran is in the middle east but it's not in the immediate neighborhood of israel so it's kind of like a big distraction over there allowing you to do your thing over here, sort of like having a walmart in the next town it's convenient when you need it but you don't want the riff raff clogging your tree lined roads. in fact iran is just far enough away to be problematic but that's a feature not a bug because that means that the US and some other friends of israel *have* to help and therefore they (i mean we) will be ensnared in the sticky spider web of complicity and this will lead invariably to many iranians and americans dying but probably not too many jews, presuming everything goes as planned. convenient that.

and then if you go ahead and read this which leads to this and this it starts to make even more sense and you get that feeling of oh fuck that is so fucking evil even worse that previously imagined so just hold the god damn phone a second because we don't know what's going on and there's no way in hell we should do one single thing until we find out. but you know nobody will bother it's too much work it's so much easier to just turn on the teevee and be told what to think and what to do and who your enemies are so you can just go kill them and they can kill you right back and then when we're all good and dead some vultures can come pick our bones clean.

but damn i'm sure it's rude to notice especially today since it's some important religious holiday.

adding value

you know there is a thing called 'adding value' in the business world. i know this because i used to have a job in the business world and i also have an mba from a prestigious business college, such a thing i refuse to use since business is so fucking corrupt that it makes me want to puke. but i digress.

anyway this adding value business is all about adding something valuable to something else. seems self explanatory no? actually you'd be surprised. i am constantly surprised how people do not recognize when value gets added in the blogosphere. sometimes it seems as bad as watching the talking heads on tv and then going into barnes and nobles and it's the same fucking people except now you can buy their books. oh hey great thanks i'm sure we need to make them even richer. and on the internet it's another crowd of people who get copied and pasted everywhere all they have to do is dash off a few lines and who knows how many thousands or millions of people will read it and pass it around. they could be great analysts and sometimes they are but you know all i'm noting is how the behavior of people is exactly the same on the supposed free-thinking internet as it is anywhere else. people with prestige from their former job or their affiliation with some slick online magazine or what have you, you say tomato i say tomahto, those people get more attention than they deserve because other people do not discern the added value part they just take it for granted that if so and so used to work for such and such agency or if so and so is the editor of such and such organization that he or she *must* shit cupcakes so let's read and share widely hmm? works everytime.

safety in numbers

a fortune from a cookie sat on my kitchen counter and it said humor is an affirmation of dignity, and i laughed because i am so flip about the most serious things and it's not that these serious things are funny, but the situation is ridiculous. it's perfectly ridiculous how far the situation has progressed. it's perfectly ridiculous that people who pay attention and understand about the war on terror and the media lying and the financial stealing and the treason, the treason of it all, need endure the indignity of being misfits in our own society because of our so called crazy ideas. it's ridiculous because it can all be easily verified, it's all right there, laying out in the open. look it up peeps, just look it up.

how does it happen that vast swaths of humanity allow themselves to be bossed around by a tiny group of people call them what you will i think satanists fits the bill with no particular distinction except their willingness and expectation to be the bosses? they are not smarter they don't work harder, there is not even an objective reason for people to behave the way they do it must be human nature that we seek for leaders and the ones with the biggest confidence game win. but it's still a con and it's still a game, and woe to you for seeing that you rude little thing.

so i can't help being rude can't help making fun of the fact that they prepare to kill more innocent people probably in the homeland too this time, again i should say, though there was a reprieve of a million or two other innocents who died in between exhibit a nine eleven and exhibit b date unknown but something oh-nine i guess, and that's just the ones killed by the obvious war activities such as bombing wedding parties. who knows how many die from lack of clean food and water and shelter or else a plethora of chemicals and poisons dropped from the sky or injected into bodies or dispensed by the lovely pharmacists at cvs. or maybe just died from a broken heart or a mind that couldn't make two and two add up to four anymore it kept insisting on being three no matter how hard they worked and how diligently they paid the bills. it's very sad but it's also ridiculous because it really was not necessary and all anyone need do is stop listening to lies but they don't. they don't do it something was lost along the way or probably it was stolen too.

so that's why i'm so rude, it's just from giving the situation the gravitas it deserves and it deserves none in my opinion. i'm sorry for all the suffering and by the way it would be different if more people had some god damned dignity and self-respect and stood up straight and tall and said with their own mouths Hey Fuck You to the people who screw us all day in and day out instead of leaving it to the handful. i mean obviously if more people had some damn dignity and thought enough of themselves and their loved ones to defend their own interests it would be safe to tell the truth for everyone.

here we go again

this is gonna be quick. i just know that since we've arrived at the eighth anniversary of 9/11, i'm going to get passive aggressive chain emails and facebook dictats asking me ordering me to remember 9/11. the people who forward and post these things, bless their hearts, have most likely spent exactly zero hours over the past eight years doing any independent research on 9/11. they have accepted the official version and every year like clockwork they get to work busily reminding everybody to remember the LIES about 9/11. and i just want to say hey, you care so much so how much time have you taken out of your life over the past eight years to do some research about what really happened that day? oh zero? yeah i thought so.

you know? fuck. that would be so rude.

can i get a volunteer?

let's say an opportunity comes up for a problem to be resolved. not a problem like hey we need people to collect the trash or clean the bathrooms. it would have to be a problem that has some upside attached to the resolution, some prestige down the road. some creature comforts. perhaps a little glory, the opportunity to be the king of some pond or at least a member of the royal court. name in the papers. kid on the team. plaque on the building. some chance to be on the inside track to make decisions to mold the outcome to be recognized. that's what the sociopath sees, and that's why whenever these particularly juicy opportunities come up the sociopaths "volunteer" to help. they will be the first to jump at the opportunity because they love you so much see they want to sacrifice their time and energy for the good of the community.

yeah.

but don't laugh, that's exactly how the spin works and it works like this over and over again. you might hear sometimes people complain that the same people always end up volunteering or helping out, and that is sort of true, but you have to look at the type of job to see which same people keep showing up, because there are actually two types of jobs and two types of people. i guarantee you that if the job has no prestige the same people who keep doing it will be lovely people accustomed to doing shitty jobs because they need to be done and they don't consider themselves above doing shitty jobs, and if the job has some kind of power levers the same people who keep volunteering will be some variety of sociopath. and these will be the very same people who remind everyone in a loud voice that it's always the same people who do all the work you ingrates. meanwhile the people who do the shitty jobs tend not to complain about it they just get it done. but you see it's really two groups of people and they get conflated by the sociopaths, and that is on purpose to lure more good people into the trap to do the many shitty jobs while the sociopaths glom all over the few power positions, because they sense power like sharks sense blood in the water. predators. and then they lord it over everyone, but nicely see? because they're volunteers and they've been in on the gig since day one, selflessly volunteering their time, so they know what's going on, so hey why don't you get involved we could use a little help there's so much to do?

and you might sit there and cock your head and think something doesn't add up but i'm not sure what it is. you might come under quite a lot of pressure, especially so if you have some useful skills. and if you decide to get involved but you don't know what's going on in the invisible interpersonal dimension where all this takes place, you *will* be stuck doing some shitty job in exchange for a nice pat on the back. but these matters definitely fall well within the parameters of things that are rude to notice because everybody is volunteering, see? so the second you say you don't like how things are run you will be told to just shut your mouth or get involved. and it's hard to argue with that.

except unless you are some kind of sociopath, your getting involved will *not* change how things are run, no matter how tasty they make that bait sound to a do-gooder who wants the best for everyone. you will simply be stuck doing shitty jobs while the sociopaths continue making all the power decisions from their thrones from which they are ensconced with a generous application of gorilla glue until the perks and glories have been handed around. and that can be arranged to go on a long time. and if they're ready to step out of the way, you can be pretty sure something must be ready to blow and they need someone to hold the bag for a sec while they take a powder from all that hard work volunteering.

not to cast aspersions on people who volunteer. that would be so rude. some of them are actually great people.

could be that patriots are rude

allright here's the thing. now we all know about native americans, who were here before everyone else, and how now we outnumber them by a lot and the native americans, well you don't see too many of them unless you live in certain states. but otherwise you can go a long time without knowing a real native american because they comprise less than five percent of the total us population and they don't have a large presence in our culture.

now some people might believe that native americans have a special quality that can't really be isolated. you'd just have to be born a native american to know about this personally otherwise just take their word for it, you know they're just kind of superior to other people because they were born that way. it's something about their race their culture their history, they're kind of like gods compared to everyone else. so really we ought to listen to them and furthermore we can justify all sorts of special treatment for them because they have these unspecified special qualities. and furthermore *furthermore* they've had a really tough time in the past because people have always been jealous of them or something and blamed them unjustly for things and so we owe it to them to be extra careful. nobody can really prove their special qualities or anything it's just commonly accepted knowledge and you can't get away from this idea no matter where you turn because everybody somehow decided to believe this, and it might be true but mostly it's just something people believe. and if you say hey you know i'm not sure about this you will be accused of being anti-native-american and you don't want that it's like having hester prynne's scarlet letter A on your forehead, so zip it.

now we know that even if some people believe this that the world doesn't revolve around native americans. but just imagine if you turned on the teevee one sunday and all the talk shows had native american guests and you opened the sunday papers to read a rich collection of native american columnists and writers, and even the miss manners q&a was a native american lady giving you advice and quoting native american wisdom and so forth and so on. and all of a sudden you had the native american perspective in your face but it was all as if it were totally normal to have this perspective very prominently displayed throughout our culture. now that might be a little strange but hey, at least the native americans did live here in north america before everybody else. so at least as a quote unquote ordinary american you could say to yourself, well you know historically we, meaning our ancestors, did treat these people very badly and they were here first and after all, they had a pretty cool culture before our ancestors came and stole all their land and killed them and forced them into ghetto reservations, so i'm not going to complain about this at least it has a degree of justice to it. i mean it would still be strange but all i'm saying is that the idea does hang together in a certain way, it has a sort of logical consistency to it.

ok now the strange thing is we don't have this situation with native americans we have it with jews, which when you think about it makes no sense. and of course it didn't happen all of a sudden it was more like when your eyesight goes bad over time, and then a day comes and you're like damn i can't see a thing i can barely function, i better go to the optometrist, and he puts the lenses in front of your eyes and suddenly you can read the letters on the bottom of the eye chart again, and you realize it says there at the bottom of the eye chart that jews are controlling america, clear as day. blink again if you need to rewet your eyeballs but that's what it says. now maybe you think that it's totally normal that american culture has this enormous jewish slant but i don't. sorry about that i know it's probably really rude to notice but hey, i'm not jewish. and we don't have a native jewish population in this country, it's not like they were here living off the land in the 1600s so i find it strange that the jewish perspective is so prominent in this country on teevee and in the newspapers when jewish people comprise about two or three percent of the us population and furthermore they came over here just like everyone else except the native americans who were already here. and i'm sorry but i don't think it's because jews are so much smarter or in any way superior to everybody else because i am not a racist and i don't believe those kind of racist ideas. which is not rude of me but the weird thing is that it's actually supposedly rude *not* to believe the rudest thing ever like the racial superiority of jews just because some jewish rabbis said so. they have absolutely zero evidence for this claim it's just a self-serving racist canard used to manipulate people. but people believe it and then they have the nerve to call other people rude for not thinking this rude and racist nonsense, except they use the word anti-semitic instead of rude. same thing in their book. hey whateves. think what you want and call me rude all day long, but in my opinion only idiots and racists believe in jewish supremacy. and i'm neither an idiot nor a racist. i'm just an american and i want my country to be run by americans and not the dual national variety sneaking around with their special interests. i think that's called patriotism. and if that's rude we've got serious problems, which we do.

prelude to rudeness

i notice that people persist in anger over mostly-predictable issues, like obama having beers with so-and-so or whatever the whine was this past week. i honestly don't know because i don't watch tv and i don't waste much time on fake outrages aka big fat distractions from the real outrages that most people don't begin to imagine. you know, because it would be rude to notice how we're getting fucked by our so-called leaders and so-called best friends. but it's also rude to notice that people tend to waste their perfectly good outrage on nonsense put into their heads from so-called experts, so anyway it poses a conundrum sometimes if you want to engage people on current events.

i mean, where the hell do you even begin to disabuse people? how do you take a basically hard working guy at the blue collar bar who gets his chest all puffed up over obama and explain that the coke he just snorted up his nose came into this country because the cia wanted it to and the money he spent on it will probably get laundered through the cigarette company that made the poison wads he's smoking or maybe the beer company that brewed the beer he's drinking. and they'll take that money and add it to other giant piles of money from illegal weapons trading or the sex slave trade or pornography or whatever money they shake down from people with various human frailties and we're talking enormous sums of money that form the black economy, and this is on top of the money they shake down from people "legally," and corrupt intelligence and law enforcement and governments and corporations use this money to set up illegal covert ops and other corrupt schemes all over the world to keep everyone sick and fighting and dying and addicted, and he'd be like what are you a fucking whack job? um yeah. i guess so. i mean i've been reading about this stuff for years and seriously the corruption will just turn your hair white. you know when they produce some of these hollywood movies what do you think they make all that stuff up?

sometimes i say hey you have to stop watching tv just don't even watch that shit. if you want to know what's going on you have to take some time out of your day and go find out, you have to go get your own news. they tell you lies on tv and in the papers from morning till night you can't believe these people, these experts, they're full of shit. too many people just want to collect their paychecks so they tell themselves little lies and they compartmentalize everything they do all day long, just like the people who work in the banking industry they process their transactions their little piece of the giant crime puzzle and their piece doesn't look so bad so they just say hey i'm not doing anything wrong i'm just doing my job. my company is ethical i have to quadruple check my work i can't make a single mistake or i'll hear from my boss so there's no way that there could be anything corrupt going on here so we're good. somebody else will have to be a hero because i can't do it. that's what people tell themselves because they're all so scared they're gonna lose their house and car and the kids have braces and have to go to college. and the american dream hangs over our heads ready to fall down and snap our necks like dry little twigs off a weak wooded tree if you miss a mortgage payment or something. meanwhile the guys upstairs have a different rule book. they're not being single checked double checked triple checked, nothing. no checks. they do what they want and they want to have plenty of easy money. and they're getting it. but it's rude to notice because in america people who succeed surely only did succeed on the basis of their own hard work and superior talent you slacker you're just jealous, and if you want to insist on taxing them to death then you must be some commie socialist liberal like obama so fuck you. that's one line of reasoning i have heard.

then again it's rude to notice that we're really not going communist or socialist we've pretty much arrived at police-state fascist and that's from the other side of the political spectrum the george w bush side but it's rude to notice that either because he's gone now so don't be looking that way you're just trying to distract people from the liberals. then again obama and bush have basically the same damn policies but it's rude to notice that either because all these well meaning people have spent lots of time and money getting obama elected so that we could have change and oh crap, sorry but that turned out to be a big waste of energy so you don't point that out either because they will surely be bummed and it hasn't been that long and a few still have hope. you know it would be cruel to dash their hopes on the rocks like all those poor iraqis and afghanis and palestinians having their dreams and lives smashed into little tiny pieces by american foreign policy. but i digress. and the bush people still don't want to admit their guy totally sucked even though that's plainly evident but see they survived that and now they're off the hook so ha. basically you can't notice anything without bumping into somebody's glass feelings.

and all that is really just beating around the bush, because the stuff that is really *really* rude to notice i haven't even begun to touch yet.

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